Monday, May 26, 2008

I Think I May Very Well Run Away From Home
Jason's tonsillectomy was this past Friday so I've been doing everything myself since then.  I normally do most household things myself anyway (since I've been jobless), but Jason is always available to entertain Solomon if I'm cooking dinner or washing dishes.  Not to mention that Jason is waaay better at entertaining Solomon than I am; our kid definitely has a strong preference for this father.  Since Jason's surgery, Solomon has been a royal pain in the rear the majority of the time.  His tantrums have increased in frequency & intensity - he knows daddy is upstairs in bed, so all he wants is to be in our bed, jumping on daddy.

This afternoon Jason asked me to take Solomon out of the house for a while as the boy wouldn't stop screaming & running crazy, so we went to the Spectrum (a nice outdoor mall).  Solomon did okay at first, until we stopped at Johnny Rocket's for dinner.  I was rearranging the seats at our table so I could put Solomon in a highchair when all of a sudden the whole stroller flipped backward!  Solomon was pushing off the table with his foot until he knocked himself over!  I was so embarrassed!!  It was a little funny though, so I couldn't help but laugh too.  Anyway, another father had to come help me because I couldn't get the damn thing back upright.  Then Solomon decided he didn't want to sit in the highchair & started flailing about when I tried to put him in it.  I then gave him a few cookies, hoping it would calm him down until we could get some fries or something, but he just threw them.  He did eat a couple, but not until he was finished practicing his curveball.  We waited for more than 10 minutes for a server & I decided I couldn't wait any longer with a wailing, thrashing toddler on my hands.  We headed back home & went through a Taco Bell drive-thru instead.

I cried most of the way home because my kid often manages to make me feel like I'm not cutout to be a mom.  Somehow, I still love him more than anything else God has ever given me.  I'm insane to want to do this a thousand times over.

1 comment:

Dani said...

I wish you were here, I'd take the little rascal off your hands for a while!! I know how frustrating it can be to not get a break. Toddlers can be soooo trying!!! I can't do much else right now but say a prayer for you all so I'll do that, and I'll pray for him to be extra good on the plane...I can't wait to see you guys! Ben and Hannah are excited to see Solomon, I told them they're going to have to help keep him busy =)